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| vivi vivi misses hubbiee hubbiee x'(
`edits.. me saw hubbiee today after two weeks.. omfg thats the longest time ever since last year !! lols x) me so hungry right now.. lols.. *sniffs i SMELL F O O D ! x) tehe well dis vaca is ending already... until APRiL! SHiETSZ x'( hope u all end ur vaca GOOD :]
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| disregard the decayed thing lmao my xanga is fixed thanks to JANEE !! and for the other xanga.. DONT GO THERE.. stay here i suppose.
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| atlast ! its another vacation to freakin waste away.. ands another LAYOUT!! so ppl anyplansz? lols.. and i`ve finally been gbin wid ken lols ! ahahs.. hrmmsz... i`m bored.. gotta go shopping, ice skate, hubbies, hangout, and maybe movies? lols xPpP
 lmao.. dis is funny =) hehe ken bowing to his goddess ME! lmao although hes VERY VERY WORTHY!!
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hunbunsz me have to see u dis freakin weekkk ! i love yousz xD
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| HAPPiE V-DAY EVERYONEEE omgg even tho i didnt get to spend it wid hubbie.. ='( it was okay.. kinda.. cus i got LOTS OF CANDiEE and i GOT TWO ROSES!!! i was surprisedd cus i didnt expect it!!! and happie swt 16 mandy!! xD
 my pretty MADE R0SES so sexaii i love them =)
PROPS MY HUBBiEE =)
aww hunbunsz i love you !!!!!!!
-edits.. i GRR YOU!! x'( x'( x'( x'( x'( x'( x'( x'( x'( x'( x'( x'( x'( x'( x'(
dans such a pimp: o marriage problems
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DeSniper1112: x'[
DeSniper1112: i dont like life anymore
DeSniper1112: my dad's death is breaking up the family
DeSniper1112: x'[
DeSniper1112: i wish my dad never started smoking...
DeSniper1112: my job now is to pick out the best picture of my dad for them to enlarge it
v i v i a n n xD: mhrms..
v i v i a n n xD: don`t look at life too sad..
DeSniper1112: what if you lost your mom?
DeSniper1112: what would you do?
v i v i a n n xD: i`ve always thought of that
v i v i a n n xD: it would just be silence between me and my dad..
DeSniper1112: ever seen a dead body?
v i v i a n n xD: yeah..?
DeSniper1112: i mean in person
v i v i a n n xD: yeah
DeSniper1112: its scary
v i v i a n n xD: i know that..
v i v i a n n xD: it`s going to worse when you see him in the coffin..
DeSniper1112: x[
DeSniper1112: shut up
v i v i a n n xD: sorry..
DeSniper1112: you know i thought my grandparents were going to leave before he does
DeSniper1112: its so sad cuz its the other way around..
v i v i a n n xD: i know..
DeSniper1112: so many photo albums..
v i v i a n n xD: you only picking one?
DeSniper1112: yeah..
DeSniper1112: its so hard..
v i v i a n n xD: can i come on monday..?
DeSniper1112: no..
DeSniper1112: vivian im not going to see you for..
DeSniper1112: 30 days..
DeSniper1112: ok?
v i v i a n n xD: yeah that.. like policy thing..
DeSniper1112 signed off at 10:47:59 PM.
DeSniper1112: fuckin damn people
DeSniper1112: they keep instant messaging me
v i v i a n n xD: they all feel bad..
DeSniper1112: they ask what happened
DeSniper1112: im like
DeSniper1112: wtf?
DeSniper1112: read my fuckin xanga
DeSniper1112: this person asked me "hows life?"
DeSniper1112: -.-"
DeSniper1112: i didnt talk to her..
DeSniper1112: omg i have the biggest headache ever
v i v i a n n xD: x(
v i v i a n n xD: go rest..
DeSniper1112: i woke up 8 in the morning..
DeSniper1112: got to the hospital at freakin 8:20
DeSniper1112: i had to take a cab..
DeSniper1112: i knew my dad wasnt going to make it..
DeSniper1112: you know..
DeSniper1112: when he died
DeSniper1112: my left hand was holding his left hand
DeSniper1112: and my right hand was holding his oxygen mask..
DeSniper1112: we slowly watched his heartbeat go slower..
DeSniper1112: and slower..
DeSniper1112: and slowerr.....
v i v i a n n xD: omg
v i v i a n n xD: stop it
DeSniper1112: ...
DeSniper1112: forget you
DeSniper1112: i dont need you
v i v i a n n xD: xO
v i v i a n n xD: omg..
DeSniper1112: i want to talk to my girlfriend about this
DeSniper1112: and all she does is tell me to "stop it"
v i v i a n n xD: cus.. ur making me cry..
DeSniper1112: ...
DeSniper1112: i bet i cried more than you ever did..
DeSniper1112: i cried for 6 hours
DeSniper1112: last 6 hours of my dad's life
DeSniper1112: >='[
DeSniper1112: you stop it
v i v i a n n xD: i'm sorry..
v i v i a n n xD: i know you must have it a lot more worse then when my family member died.
DeSniper1112: my dad was a great man
DeSniper1112: he took care of the whole entire family
DeSniper1112: now he's gone
DeSniper1112: the family is like at war
DeSniper1112: he took care of my sister
DeSniper1112: my 3 other brothers
DeSniper1112: especially me
DeSniper1112: he spoiled me the most
DeSniper1112: he took care of my mom
DeSniper1112: his wife
DeSniper1112: shit and he helped out winnie's family and other stuff
DeSniper1112: shit the family is at war cuz they are having trouble planning the funeral
DeSniper1112: and what to do with his life insurance money
v i v i a n n xD: why..?
v i v i a n n xD: whats wrong
v i v i a n n xD: oh..
DeSniper1112: my mom is scared she might lose a job and have no money to support me
v i v i a n n xD: why??
DeSniper1112: i dont know
v i v i a n n xD: shes just being scared..
DeSniper1112: she might get fired or something
DeSniper1112: yeah
v i v i a n n xD: she doesnt really have a reason for that
DeSniper1112: and she wants that 50000 bux from my dad's life insurance
DeSniper1112: she wants to send me to college
DeSniper1112: and danny too
DeSniper1112: along with that she has to pay 1000 bux each month
DeSniper1112: for rent
v i v i a n n xD: this is so horrible..
DeSniper1112: im planning to get a part time job
DeSniper1112: afterschool..
v i v i a n n xD: how much is ur rent?
DeSniper1112: 1400 bux?
DeSniper1112: around there
v i v i a n n xD: xO
DeSniper1112: 1400 bux a month
v i v i a n n xD: i wonder.. if..
DeSniper1112: ?
v i v i a n n xD: i can ask my mom
v i v i a n n xD: to rent the basement
v i v i a n n xD: to you people..
DeSniper1112: hahaha you are funny
v i v i a n n xD: cus my parents only rent it out for 700
v i v i a n n xD: a month
v i v i a n n xD: thats how cheap my parents give the b`ment for
DeSniper1112: we arnt moving
v i v i a n n xD: okay..
DeSniper1112: at least i dont think we are..
DeSniper1112: we didnt move because my dad got sick
DeSniper1112: now that my dad is gone
DeSniper1112: im not sure if we are staying here..
v i v i a n n xD: hmm
DeSniper1112: yeah yeah
DeSniper1112: ask your mom
DeSniper1112: lol
DeSniper1112: you can inform her about what happened..
v i v i a n n xD: finally u "lol"
DeSniper1112: lol
DeSniper1112: wow i wasnt loling?
v i v i a n n xD: nope..
DeSniper1112: wow
DeSniper1112: i didnt notice
v i v i a n n xD: the tensity...
v i v i a n n xD: i`m trembling all over..
DeSniper1112: why!?
DeSniper1112: he isnt your dad
DeSniper1112: you barely know him
v i v i a n n xD: yeah i know..
v i v i a n n xD: but its just happening..
DeSniper1112: ..
DeSniper1112: we took down all the red in the house
DeSniper1112: apartment*
v i v i a n n xD: oh yeah
DeSniper1112: now it looks so freakin empty
DeSniper1112: x[
v i v i a n n xD: hmm..
v i v i a n n xD: and more quiet..
DeSniper1112: my dad put all those red decorations up!
v i v i a n n xD: yeah i know..
v i v i a n n xD: omg..
v i v i a n n xD: hey is your mom okay..?
v i v i a n n xD: how is she..?
DeSniper1112: yeah...
DeSniper1112: she's talking to family members
DeSniper1112: winnie's mom
DeSniper1112: and my grandparents brother and sister
DeSniper1112: we all live close together
DeSniper1112: all in new york
DeSniper1112: my brother chi might move back to new york
DeSniper1112: to help out around the apartment
DeSniper1112: and help suport us
v i v i a n n xD: hm.
v i v i a n n xD: so much confusion..
DeSniper1112: i wonder who's gonna tell the family back in china
DeSniper1112: like my dad's brother
DeSniper1112: o.o
v i v i a n n xD: why,? ur mom isnt?
DeSniper1112: no
DeSniper1112: they havnt been in contact with him
DeSniper1112: for like
DeSniper1112: o.o
DeSniper1112: 10 years?
v i v i a n n xD: wow..
DeSniper1112: you aint getting warheads until next month then..
DeSniper1112: lol.
v i v i a n n xD: err
v i v i a n n xD: lets just hope they dont get sticky..?
DeSniper1112: lol
v i v i a n n xD: you can have them.. lol
DeSniper1112: ima eat them
DeSniper1112: puhaha
DeSniper1112: what the
DeSniper1112: ok then
v i v i a n n xD: =)
v i v i a n n xD: blahh
v i v i a n n xD: still picking that picture.?
DeSniper1112: no
DeSniper1112: i cant take it anymore
DeSniper1112: ima pick tomorrow..
DeSniper1112: no wait
DeSniper1112: i have to go buy a suit tomorrow
DeSniper1112: o.o
v i v i a n n xD: for?
DeSniper1112: funeral?
v i v i a n n xD: the funeral?
v i v i a n n xD: a suit..?
DeSniper1112: you know
v i v i a n n xD: hm.
v i v i a n n xD: yeah
DeSniper1112: yeah..
v i v i a n n xD: shouldnt you sleep..?
v i v i a n n xD: aren`t you tired?
v i v i a n n xD: x(
DeSniper1112: xO
DeSniper1112: i see my dad's mom
v i v i a n n xD: grandma?
DeSniper1112: yeah
v i v i a n n xD: where?
v i v i a n n xD: lol
DeSniper1112: pictures
v i v i a n n xD: pic?
DeSniper1112: durf
v i v i a n n xD: hrm.. lol
DeSniper1112: she died
v i v i a n n xD: they look alike?
v i v i a n n xD: lol
v i v i a n n xD: curious..
DeSniper1112: pshh
DeSniper1112: what you think?
DeSniper1112: lol
v i v i a n n xD: how should i know
DeSniper1112: omg my dad and his brother looks alike
v i v i a n n xD: hehe
DeSniper1112: so cool
v i v i a n n xD: you never seen them?
DeSniper1112: i personally never met him before
v i v i a n n xD: ohs
DeSniper1112: if i did i was too young to remember
v i v i a n n xD: yeah
v i v i a n n xD: hey during monday.. is someone making a speech?
DeSniper1112: i dont know
v i v i a n n xD: there prob is
DeSniper1112: xO
DeSniper1112: i see a picture
DeSniper1112: it had this chair table thingy
DeSniper1112: that my mom and dad picked up
DeSniper1112: for me to do homeowrk on
v i v i a n n xD: lol
DeSniper1112: damn
DeSniper1112: i dont know what happened to it
DeSniper1112: o.o
v i v i a n n xD: u prob forgot
v i v i a n n xD: so cute
DeSniper1112: omg omg
v i v i a n n xD: ..????
DeSniper1112: pictures
DeSniper1112: of when me dad mom and danny went to sesame place
DeSniper1112: it was so fun
v i v i a n n xD: tehe!
DeSniper1112: played in the water
DeSniper1112: lol
DeSniper1112: damnnnn
v i v i a n n xD: aw it was fun
DeSniper1112: i never knew i was that young when i went
DeSniper1112: dad loved that place x'[
v i v i a n n xD: you forgot so much
DeSniper1112: he wanted to go again..
DeSniper1112: never had the chance to..
DeSniper1112: nevber will..
v i v i a n n xD: lol ur dad?
DeSniper1112: never*
v i v i a n n xD: he like playing in those?
DeSniper1112: yeah he had a lot of fun there with us
v i v i a n n xD: or is it wid you guys?
DeSniper1112: he played with me and danny
v i v i a n n xD: lol okay tehe cus parents dont relle like going unless kids
DeSniper1112: my dad's grandma looks so old in the pictures
DeSniper1112: so boney..
DeSniper1112: looks like she's 100 years old
v i v i a n n xD: blank n white?
DeSniper1112: nope
DeSniper1112: colored
v i v i a n n xD: oh wow
DeSniper1112: i know
DeSniper1112: so old
v i v i a n n xD: is it like wrinkly
v i v i a n n xD: ?
DeSniper1112: is it?
DeSniper1112: what it?
v i v i a n n xD: the pictures?
v i v i a n n xD: cus its like old?
DeSniper1112: nope
DeSniper1112: fine condition
v i v i a n n xD: ohs icic
DeSniper1112: omg i see a picture of my dad standing next to this TV
DeSniper1112: i remember that tv
DeSniper1112: me and danny broke it
DeSniper1112: cuz we watched it too much
DeSniper1112: and my dad got so freakin pissed
DeSniper1112: im guessing he loved that tv
v i v i a n n xD: lie my dad sed its gonna explode
DeSniper1112: my brother and sister looks so yuong
DeSniper1112: my oldest brother
DeSniper1112: me danny and chi looks young when we are young
DeSniper1112: them older 2 looks old when they are young
DeSniper1112: lol
DeSniper1112: xO
DeSniper1112: picture of my dad sitting ontop of a tree!
DeSniper1112: omg he's so cool
DeSniper1112: >.<
v i v i a n n xD: LOL
v i v i a n n xD: a tree?
DeSniper1112: O.O
DeSniper1112: dad played hacky sack!?
DeSniper1112: wtf is he hacking around in the air!?
v i v i a n n xD: OMG!!!!!!!!
DeSniper1112: omg...
DeSniper1112: dad..
DeSniper1112: x'[
v i v i a n n xD: wow..
v i v i a n n xD: one thing u have in common
v i v i a n n xD: heh
v i v i a n n xD: my mom sed you look like ur dad
DeSniper1112: how she know?
v i v i a n n xD: i showed her ur xanga
v i v i a n n xD: lol..
DeSniper1112: why?
v i v i a n n xD: i dont know.. the pictures..
DeSniper1112: i look like my mom more than my dad
v i v i a n n xD: i asked if you look like the you now
v i v i a n n xD: she said yeah a little
v i v i a n n xD: she said u look more like ur dad
DeSniper1112: lol
DeSniper1112: then she should see my mom in person
DeSniper1112: o.o
DeSniper1112: lol
v i v i a n n xD: hm
DeSniper1112: x[
v i v i a n n xD: they will meet..
DeSniper1112: i see pictures..
v i v i a n n xD: one day
DeSniper1112: christmas tree..
DeSniper1112: i helped my dad set the christmas tree up
DeSniper1112: x'[
v i v i a n n xD: aw..
v i v i a n n xD: hey i had dat one moment too
v i v i a n n xD: buhs im sure urs is much bettur..
v i v i a n n xD: since my dad sucks.,.
DeSniper1112: omg headache
DeSniper1112: >.<
DeSniper1112: @_@
v i v i a n n xD: xT
v i v i a n n xD: -_________________________-;;
v i v i a n n xD: what time you have to wake up toamro?
DeSniper1112: i have to be up by..
DeSniper1112: 12?
DeSniper1112: or 1
v i v i a n n xD: oo0oh
v i v i a n n xD: hm
DeSniper1112: hmm?
DeSniper1112: hey are you allowed to let people come over if someone in the family died?
v i v i a n n xD: i thought ur not gonna see me for a month..?
DeSniper1112: hmm??
DeSniper1112: wha?
DeSniper1112: lol
v i v i a n n xD: okay
v i v i a n n xD: lol
DeSniper1112: you didnt answer my question
v i v i a n n xD: its like this
v i v i a n n xD: you cant go to people's house
v i v i a n n xD: buhs everything else is fine
DeSniper1112: that means people can come over?
v i v i a n n xD: im not sure about that part..
DeSniper1112: herm....
DeSniper1112: okey..
v i v i a n n xD: i dont think im gonig to jeffs bd..
DeSniper1112: ok
v i v i a n n xD: my mom sed
v i v i a n n xD: it doesnt even have to b a month anymore
v i v i a n n xD: it can b like 2 weeks
v i v i a n n xD: den u can come
DeSniper1112: im asking if people can come over here
DeSniper1112: not me go other places
v i v i a n n xD: you still want me to come?
DeSniper1112: omg
DeSniper1112: lol
DeSniper1112: its just a freakin question
v i v i a n n xD: omg what?
DeSniper1112: you dont give me a freakin solid answer
DeSniper1112: lol
v i v i a n n xD: lol.
v i v i a n n xD: blah..
DeSniper1112: ask your mom
v i v i a n n xD: no shes gonna tell me not to come to ur apt
DeSniper1112: say im askin
v i v i a n n xD: hm
DeSniper1112: cmonnn
DeSniper1112: damn im still eating dinner
DeSniper1112: lol
v i v i a n n xD: its like almost TOAMRO
v i v i a n n xD: lol..
v i v i a n n xD: -.-
DeSniper1112: yeah i know
DeSniper1112: finished
DeSniper1112: now im eating fruit
DeSniper1112: lol
DeSniper1112: you know funerals these days costs about 16000 to 20000 bux?
DeSniper1112: ours is less than 10000
DeSniper1112: like almost 9000
v i v i a n n xD: wow..
DeSniper1112: yeah
v i v i a n n xD: i never knew dat
v i v i a n n xD: O.O
DeSniper1112: we got connections
v i v i a n n xD: lolol
v i v i a n n xD: okays..
DeSniper1112: the priest did us a huge favor
v i v i a n n xD: is dis in ct..?
DeSniper1112: ?
DeSniper1112: yeah
DeSniper1112: did you ask your mom yet?
DeSniper1112: about my question?
v i v i a n n xD: err
v i v i a n n xD: hold on
v i v i a n n xD: lols
v i v i a n n xD: sorry
v i v i a n n xD: my mom sed
v i v i a n n xD: no its bettur off people dont come
DeSniper1112: yeah.
DeSniper1112: .people came over
DeSniper1112: o.o
v i v i a n n xD: family?
DeSniper1112: yeah
v i v i a n n xD: thats differnet
DeSniper1112: wowww
DeSniper1112: mom was so pretty when she was young
DeSniper1112: when she just married dad
v i v i a n n xD: like likee?
DeSniper1112: ?
DeSniper1112: ?
v i v i a n n xD: lol im saying like how old?
DeSniper1112: like 20
v i v i a n n xD: wow..
DeSniper1112: aha i see mom working on the computer
v i v i a n n xD: wow
v i v i a n n xD: interesting..
v i v i a n n xD: omg my brother can use the computer now -.-
DeSniper1112: ?
v i v i a n n xD: my bro didnt let me go o nthe comp
v i v i a n n xD: he was using it
DeSniper1112: how?
v i v i a n n xD: wid the mouse
v i v i a n n xD: playing blues clues
DeSniper1112: ?
v i v i a n n xD: we have a kindergarden game
v i v i a n n xD: cd-rom
v i v i a n n xD: he was playing wid it
v i v i a n n xD: so smart..
v i v i a n n xD: lol
DeSniper1112: lol
DeSniper1112: why cant you use the other comp?
v i v i a n n xD: i did
v i v i a n n xD: lol
v i v i a n n xD: he was using one
v i v i a n n xD: i was using another
v i v i a n n xD: buhs den he got annoyed
v i v i a n n xD: cus he sat on da same chair
v i v i a n n xD: tehe
v i v i a n n xD: people cant IM u den IM me !!!
DeSniper1112: ?
DeSniper1112: dont tell them im online!
DeSniper1112: i dont wana tlak to anyone else besides you...
v i v i a n n xD: i didnt
DeSniper1112: k...
v i v i a n n xD: are you feeling better than before now?
DeSniper1112: not really..
v i v i a n n xD: x\ aww
v i v i a n n xD: i wished.. im with you..
DeSniper1112: me too..
v i v i a n n xD: i wished we were married and..
v i v i a n n xD: things might have been easier
DeSniper1112: >.<
DeSniper1112: shhhh
DeSniper1112: when are you going to sleep?
v i v i a n n xD: umm
v i v i a n n xD: like..
v i v i a n n xD: 1:30
DeSniper1112: okeyy..
DeSniper1112: ima brb..
DeSniper1112: need to find the picture..
DeSniper1112: i needa pick a nice one..
DeSniper1112: talk to you later...
v i v i a n n xD: okay
v i v i a n n xD: im still here.. i think im sleeping around 1ish..
DeSniper1112: okey sweetie..
DeSniper1112: omfg im so tired...
DeSniper1112: my eyes burn
DeSniper1112: so red too
v i v i a n n xD: aww..
DeSniper1112: i only had about 5 hours of sleep
v i v i a n n xD: you panda eyes.
DeSniper1112: lol...
v i v i a n n xD: x(
v i v i a n n xD: you silly
DeSniper1112: i was the only one sitting next to him on the bed when he passed away
v i v i a n n xD: wheres ur molm?
DeSniper1112: i hope he heard every bit of everthing
v i v i a n n xD: mom*
DeSniper1112: she is taking a shower right now
v i v i a n n xD: no..
DeSniper1112: she isnt taking it that hard..
v i v i a n n xD: i meant durin that time
DeSniper1112: she was at the end of the bad
DeSniper1112: near his feet
v i v i a n n xD: oh
DeSniper1112: my brother chi was standing near his head
DeSniper1112: i was there trying to give him more oxygen
DeSniper1112: and holding his hand
v i v i a n n xD: aww omgg...
DeSniper1112: and then he slowly stopped breathing
v i v i a n n xD: dis is like so dramatic
DeSniper1112: and then his heart stopped
DeSniper1112: this is dramatic vivian
DeSniper1112: my dad died..
v i v i a n n xD: i know..
v i v i a n n xD: its very scary
v i v i a n n xD: how it happened..
DeSniper1112: x[
v i v i a n n xD: i`ll prob be on the floor
v i v i a n n xD: crying..
DeSniper1112: my cousin was going crazy when his heart stopped
DeSniper1112: cousin from ct
DeSniper1112: she was crying all over
v i v i a n n xD: >.< so horriblee
DeSniper1112: she had a nose bleed cuz of that
v i v i a n n xD: wow
v i v i a n n xD: dats so crazy
DeSniper1112: i know..
v i v i a n n xD: u get nose bleeds when u cry alot?
DeSniper1112: i dont
v i v i a n n xD: i meant in general people get that
DeSniper1112: i dont know
v i v i a n n xD: blah
v i v i a n n xD: x(
DeSniper1112: i wish he never started smoking...
v i v i a n n xD: yeah..
v i v i a n n xD: x(
v i v i a n n xD: did u find that pic yet?
DeSniper1112: no...
DeSniper1112: im going to do this tomorrow..
DeSniper1112: im too tired vivian..
DeSniper1112: i need to go to sleep now..
v i v i a n n xD: go to sleep
v i v i a n n xD: lol
v i v i a n n xD: yeah
DeSniper1112: good night
v i v i a n n xD: night
v i v i a n n xD: i love you..
v i v i a n n xD: take care
DeSniper1112: i love you...
DeSniper1112: omg i dont even want to think how it would be like to lose YOU
DeSniper1112: T.T
DeSniper1112: *sobs *sobs
v i v i a n n xD: !
v i v i a n n xD: !
v i v i a n n xD: !
v i v i a n n xD: x(
DeSniper1112: it would be worse
DeSniper1112: i think..
DeSniper1112: x[
v i v i a n n xD: take care.. i love you..
DeSniper1112: i love you!!
v i v i a n n xD: =']
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